Grow or Die

I heard a great message about the law of grow or die that's really got me thinking. Basically the law states that we can not remain the same in any aspect of our lives. We are either growing and improving and investing our knowledge or we are effectively "dieing" in that aspect of our lives. The more I think about this, the more I agree. Think about your relationships, or a specific relationship, maybe your spouse; is that relationship the same today as it was a year ago? Of course not, it's either improved or worsened. This is challenging to me in many aspects of my life. My relationships, my intellect, my finances - am I utilizing these gifts or blessings to the best of my ability, or am I going backwards or dieing in any of these areas?

Book Of Tears

For those of you who don't know it yet, I'm releasing a book this spring, along with another grand surprise that I'll tell you about later. Writing this book has been an amazing journey of recollection and memories. Some of them wonderful and many of them heartbreaking. So, as I'm doing this I'm asking myself "why?". "Why am I putting myself through this?", or often is "Why does talking about this or remembering details bother me so much, I thought I had dealt with those things already."

The answer is because I think telling my story will help more people than it's hurting me to write. I feel like I have so much inside me that's just aching to be released, aching to get out and do something more productive than causing pain. I feel like this book is something I have to do. But, I also really want to do it. Just some days are harder than others to get through just a few pages.

Today I came across this relatively new artist, Meridith Andrews beautiful song. Her message in the song is also the message of my book. Although God took me through the darkest nights of my life, he was still there. Because if he wasn't I wouldn't have made it through them. That was one of the hardest things to realize, that God "let" them happen to me. But in all fairness, my decisions caused a lot of my pain but despite that God didn't leave my side. HE walked through the pain with me and cried with me every tear, felt every heartache so that I would know the depth of His love for me.

So Much Pain

There's so many women in the world that have experienced enormous amounts of pain in their life. Some of it we've done to ourselves by making bad choices and some of it has been brought on by other people.

This week I heard a story of a young girl, 9 years old, that was impregnated by her mothers 26 year old boyfriend. I can't even imagine the amount of pain that young girl has gone through and will go through as a result of her mothers decision. The mother is now in prison as well as the rapist, the babies father but that young girl still has her whole life ahead of her. I just want to take her into my arms and tell her it's going to be ok, and she will make it through this.

It's bad enough to be sexually assaulted at any age, but then on top of that to be pushed into motherhood at nine years old. I can't even fathom. It makes me just so angry to see the selfishness of man and now that young mother has no one to turn to in this world.

Ok,I need to talk about something a little more upbeat and hopeful!

Speaking of finding hope in the midst of life. This week on the Her Freedom show Deanna Allen from Daughters of Destiny will be my guest. You don't want to miss this!

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Bebo and Britney

Something about this song really hits home for me. Maybe not so much personally, but it's so true that society has trashed these poor girls lives and then wondered why they can't pick up the pieces. Jesus loved the broken, Jesus loved the lepers, the adulterers, the tax collectors.

Yeah, they made some bad choices, and got caught up in the money and fame but who wouldn't in their shoes. I'm not a Brittney fan, but my heart does ache for her and young starlets like her. If only they knew the true lover of their souls, they would not be on this endless search for acceptance and love only to end up scraping themselves up off the pavement over and over again.

Once we realize that we don't have to prove our worth to God, we've captured the essence of his love for us. No matter what we've done it's never too late, God has not forgotten us even when we try to forget about Him.